Well, I've almost been in Chile for a whole week. Which in reality, isn't a lot of time, but it's been enough to start to adjust to the culture and my new family. I'm having a lot of fun, but have also found myself with more down time than I can ever remember having (and I also realize, will probably never have again once I leave Chile.. ah so is life I guess). Hopefully this will change a little once classes start but for now I'm trying to just enjoy it by spending time with my family, sleeping (yay naps!), and spending some time digging into the Word and journaling. Anyways, I just finished my devotions today, and decided that they were worth sharing.
Since I've been here, I've been trying to figure out what kind of person I wanted to be. I mean, NOBODY here knows who I am. I could go by a different name, like different music, act differently, etc. etc. and no one would know the difference. This is a crazy thing to realize. And I've been struggling with this a little bit, because I want to be accepted by my family and their friends here, but I also know that I'm called to live a lifestyle that glorifies God. So where do these two meet, and how do I get over my fear of not being accepted because of who I am in Christ? And where in all of this does sharing the Gospel fit in?
Today, I found the beginning my answer in Day 33 of Battlefield of the Mind (Joyce Meyer) and the book of Joshua. In day 32 and 33, Meyer talks about what it means to truly meditate on Scripture. To be more concerned with understand scripture than getting through a whole chapter or book. She actually compares it to eating a meal - where you take time to comment on the smell, the appearance, the texture, and finally the taste. That in doing this, we will be able to take God's word to heart, obey it, and be successful - not necessarily in worldy terms, but in the kingdom that matters. She also mentioned Joshua, which, 'coincidentally' Joshua was the book that I was planning on starting to read today. In Joshua 1:8-9, God commands Joshua to meditate on the Scriptures day and night, and to 'Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.' All of this, was just the reminder that I needed. Not only can I rest in the fact that God is with me, but because He commands me to be 'strong and courageous' I can trust that He will give me the strength to be just that. I'm not sure how people will respond to me, but I know that if I continue to obey God's plan for my life (which I can understand by reading and meditating on the scriptures) He will give me the strength to overcome whatever struggle, and he will turn my obedience into growth (and success) for His Kingdom. And I can't ask for much more than that.
That doesn't mean that I'm not scared at all. I am, but I'm also at peace about it, and I'm learning that being in God's peace is a pretty great peace to be. And for those of you looking for ways to pray for me, well here you go :).
Chao. Shalom.